Why why why?? Thats all i keep thinking just now.

Im still not doing my physio & im really payin the price, my chest is in agony & i cant stop coughing. All i seem to be doing just now is sleepin & arguing with my mum, i cant take much more of it. I dont know why im not doing my physio cos i know its whats keeping me alive, i know im being so daft. My mum is phoning the hospital on tuesday, and im going to see a phycologist to see if they can get through to me and help me before i do real damage to myself.

I've not long woke up actually, had a rubbish day were i just havent stopped crying. Just wish i would go to sleep and wake up and this would all just be a big bad dream.

I'll probably be going back upto hosp on tues, cos my chest is terrible.
So i'll let everyone know how i get on. Thanks Ally for all the lovely comments you leave me & for making me a card, ur an absoulte angel.

Lots of love to all, keep well & smily xxxxxxxxxx